I'm downloading 88 Keys' latest album, The Death of Adam. It supposed to give an insight on male relationship induced pain. It seems to cover everything. I wanna give it a listen.

I don't believe men hurt the way women hurt. I know some women are no good, like most some men are no good. But, I have always thought that women hurt and find joy due to emotional needs. Men usually hurt from more selfish personal needs.

Me personally have realized that most things that hurt me that men do to me are things that I allow them to do. If a man gives you some wicked awesome dick and then tell you that he doesn't want a relationship, no matter how good your nash is, believe him and then run far away. I wrote a poem once, "I need to stop acting like my pussy is a dick," because I was (is) so hooked on his sex like some insatiable man.

I was in love with this person and I spent maybe a year within that "relationship" in pain from having a crush on someone who is very present in my life and knows my body sexually better than any man I've ever been with. I will never be able to make love to him, but he fucked me once/twice a month.

He now comes by for "maintenance," as I call it, but I know that he now lives with a woman and he will not allow me to deal with that. He will not admit it. I, for one, feel betrayed. If he needed a woman, why didn't he want me? But i'll just leave it at that. Ultimately, I've decided that he's only good to me for one thing and I, him.

But, anyways.... This cd is to cover all the aspects of male/female relationships and things. BFF (Best Fucking Friend, i.e. see above), M.i.l.f.s, Unprotected Sex, STDs, etc. This might be the best hip hop breakup material since "U R the One" by Mos Def. It's done! We'll see...

Labels: interesting people, love, strange inspirations, thoughts

I met Danny Boyle a few years back, when he came to screen "Millions" in Atlanta. I was nervous to meet him. I've met a few directors and it's just so strange how ordinary they are. If you watch their films and then meet them, it's hard to believe that they are the vessels of such great work. He was eerily humble and he was even shocked when this guy asked him to sign his Trainspotting dvd.

Slumdog Millionaire is such an amazing story. I know it's based on a book, but, WoW! what a story. It follows these young street orphan brothers through life and shows all the downsides of being muslim homeless orphans growing up in the slums of Mumbai.
Jamal somehow ends up on "Who wants to be a Millionaire" and has actually made it all the way to the end to the very last question. The fact that he knows all the answers doesn't astonish people, but offends them. They automatically assume that a kid from gully can't possible know anything. so he's interrogated instead of celebrated. The movies follows his life story framed around each question that he correctly answered. The set up itself is just great, who could ever think of that?

It asks the audience, how do you think he knew the answers?

• A. He Cheated.
  
• B. He's Lucky
  
• C. He's a Genious
• D. It is written.

You have to see it to find out.

I always see movies and rant and rave about them and then later i'll read reviews and they usually get ok or bad reviews (i.e. Australia and Miracle at Saint Anna) and then after reading what they say i think to myself, "hey, that's true" but this movie is great and was reviewed great. I can safely say that it is my absolute favorite movie.

Cinematically, this was definitely a Danny Boyle movie. There was the backward shot, the enormous zoom out to aerial shot, the impoverished or challenged characters. These aesthetics create a great film visually. Everything was so poor, yet colors were so rich. Danny Boyle has a working class background and he tends to stay true to that and because of that he's able to capture their life without coming off as preachy or as unrealistic due to not knowing. Acting was great, Jamal's love interest was hispanic, but that's cool, she looked beautifully Indian.

I just loved this movie.... please go see it. I know Atlanta represented for this Indie. There was such a long line at Tara Cinema. It was so nice being in a huge auditorium watching a quality film and not some dribble. The indian kids all came out, there were a lot of old white people there, and me. lol.... M.I.A. provided some songs to soundtrack. I'm just blown away.

Labels: Cam Goes to The Movies, interesting people, my favorite things

Saw Cadillac Records tonight. I love the blues, my grandfather played blues guitar, blues is what made me start my record collection. When I heard this movie was gonna be based on Chess Records, I was excited! I'm always skeptical of historic re-enactments cuz writers always hand pick events that they find "filmic." It's been a long time since I've seen a popular movie that was in a huge stadium (maybe it was the last Lord of the Rings) but it was fun, even the idiot behind me made it fun.

Jeffrey Wright did a good job as Muddy Waters, whom is a dear fav of mine. It was nice to see behind the music and see what kind of people they were, but at the end of the day, all I care about is the track I listen to on my record player. Adrien Brody did okay, he had a generic "i'm upset" acting tantrum (i hate those) but it was good. Beyonce, whom everyone was looking out for, did okay. Not to be a hater, but the easiest role for "us" to play is a sassy black woman, cuz that's what we are. She did favor Etta and her renditions of Etta's best songs were just that, renditions. In a biopic, I'd like her to act and sound like Etta, not Beyonce. But the songs were a dream.

I'm glad they make these films, school the children on our history. I searched for these things, but I'm glad they've pushed it into mainstream. People need to know where they come from. Most musicians that make our music that we listen to already know this music. Hopefully someone will go out and you tube their music.

Muddy Waters, "Can't Lose What You Ain't Never Had" (ain't it the truth?)

Labels: Cam Goes to The Movies, interesting people, my favorite things

In new relationships, I'm very wary of my man's platonic girl friends. Partly, because I know that every guy i have as a friend became my friends because we didn't work out romantically, with that said, i just don't like the idea of them being around. Since, they were around before me, I don't try to end the friendship but I do assert myself in making my position clear. This movie showed 2 platonic friends who've never slept with each other and never got the idea, until they were dirt poor, and even then they wanted to make sure they weren't going to ruin their friendship. Now, I've been blessed by never been in that position to be that broke, but i have
slept with a friend before and it not get wierd.

My particular friend was just such a sweet guy, he was always there for me whenever i needed (i returned the same favor) and he is very ambitious. I don't know why i'm speaking of him in past tense, we're still friends, lol. Anyway, the night I spent the night with him was a beautiful loving night, he made love to me like a husband on a honeymoon or anniversary. We held hands and it was very tender, the next morning, i got in my car and I was gone and we were back to our regular friendship, never to overstep that boundary again.

Zack and Miri

Filmically, it was ok. In the eyes of movie watcher, it was great! Hilarious and sweet. It was nice to see Kevin Smith back into his realm as a director, I thought I had lost him with Jersey Girl. If there was ever a story built around a porno, it could never beat this one. It handled the subject matter beautifully (if that's possible, haha). The characters were understandable and wasn't over reaching. I will say the ending was awful and openended. I always stick around to see the credits, but i did notice everyone else sticking around because, like me, they too thought there was going to be more. But, as a writer, I know how it can be difficult to end things, even when it seems to write itself.

The cast was just great and they all had their own niche in the film. Jason Mewes (Jay from Jay and Silent Bob) was back and looking kinda hot as an older man. Craig Robinson is growing on me, I believe I will have a crush soon. Funny guys kill me! Seth Rogan fits in the bucket too. He's so funny and reminds me of guys i went to high school with. I don't check for women too much and i don't know what she's been in before, but Elizabeth Banks is cute without being too beautiful or too plain.

The porn scenes were exactly like my parent's porn that I used to sneak and watch. If you're seasoned porn watcher (i'm not but i've seen my share) then you'll laugh to yourself at the little porn-isms included throughout the pic (even the font it's written in, hilarious!).

If you like these kind of movies, you should check it out. For it's genre, I'd give it a "B"

Labels: Cam Goes to The Movies, interesting people, love, my favorite things

"I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding."

Labels: female sexuality, interesting people, self image